Updates? Or plain ranting?

I realized how long I did not really write anything.
But actually until today, I am still not in the mood of writing a proper post.
Oh well, many things have happened since I suppose.
Some of the matter, I'm still trying to get control over it.
Some I'm trying very hard to accept it.
Some I'm just working really hard, but may never understand it.
Is all about trying and trying?
I guess.

I close my eyes, sometimes flashbacks happens.
Reminding me how time really flies.
Reminding me how I have take some things for granted.
Reminding me how I should listen to myself more.

Sometimes, I close my eyes, I imagined the future.
How I will be. Will I shine?
I don't remember how I fell so deep in love with the place I want to go so much now.
And yet, I see things disappearing before me.
What can I do?

My mood is so gloomy and grey now even playing a lively song doesn't cheer me up.
What should I do?
Oh well, I guess time will do its magic again...

Oh anyway, on a lighter note.
APEF is near, me and my friends are really looking forward to meet up, all the way there =)
And good luck to our Malaysia representatives Patricia and Zie Lik.
And their teacher, work hard!!! haha =P